So my new years resolution was to keep up with my uni work, write a diary and be vegan.

Unfortunately I’m failing horribly at all three of them. Being vegan was going really well up until last night. I’ve noticed I’m incredibly pale recently and the skin in the roof of my mouth HAS STARTED TO PEEL OFF! Needless to say I drew the line there and had half a beef burger (then regurgitated it) and today I had some chicken and a bacon bap. I’ll get back on the wagon tomorrow and mention it when I see the doctor  tomorrow.

I haven’t kept up with any Uni work since I started this term and will print off all my lecture notes some time this week if I can be bothered to trudge through the snow!

As for writing a diary I am currently 4 weeks behind however I have kept a mini diary noting events throughout my day which I shall refer back to and get up to speed again when I can be bothered. 

On the bright side though I’m going through some drastic (yet positive) changes in my life. I’ve been working out and without even dieting I have lost over 10lbs in 2 weeks which I was really impressed with. Overall my mood has improved but being away from all the negative shit in Southend probably has a lot to do with that. 

So last week I wrote off my car and nearly killed myself and three people in a car accident! That defiantly fucked my plans up ever so slightly. Basically me and some friends had gone to Norfolk to see a Reel Big Fish gig in Norwich. On the way back from the pub it was raining and I started to skid on a bend. seeing the car coming towards me I made a split second decision to swerve the car and steer into the ditch. I opened my eyes to smoke coming out my engine and the dash being shunted forward onto my lap. After checking everyone was out I fought my way out the car. My air bags failed to go off so I also hit my head on the steering wheel. Luckily no one was seriously injured however if I hadn’t steered out the way it would have been a different story. I only clipped the other car slightly however so much damage was done to both cars they both had to be written off. It was then we noticed the road was covered in Diesel from the previous accident. I’m claiming from the Council for the damage to my car but essentially I had a very lucky narrow escape. 

I’ve just got back from spending the weekend in Southend and had a wild weekend to say the least. Lets just say I started my night in Chameleon and woke up in a hotel room in Basildon (the next town) with a Navy sailor and had his first night off the ship in 7 months. I made him pay for me to get a cab home, needless to say I remember fuck and all of that night out!

So last night I went on a pub crawl to see some friends before I went back to Uni for weeks on end without seeing anyone. It started off fine however it soon started to blizzard and we ended up walking home at 4 in the morning. Not fun. Having a snow fight seemed like a good idea at the time but this morning I realised I have 1. Lost my mobile and 2. Broken my wrist. It didn’t hurt at all last night or most of today in fact however it is extremely swollen and bruised. I believe I have chipped one of my Carpels which is allowing it to over extend in the most grotesque manor with even made me feel faint and I’m far from squeamish. So it looks like I’ll be missing lectures tomorrow and sitting up Barnet’s A&E to get it x-rayed although I am 70% sure I know what the outcome will be.
 

I have decided to keep a diary and post it online to share my experiances with other people. I have often thought you could write a book with all the bizarre things that happen to me out the blue but I guess when you live in your own little bubble of ignorant bliss then it comes to a shock when you discover the world is not as bright and shiny as you once thought.

My life has taken an uphill climb the past few weeks and I thought it would be as good a time as any to keep a record of it. Like the pages of a book I feel like today was turning a page and starting a new chapter. I’m a student veterinary nurse studying a degree and although I won’t talk about anything work wise I may make vague references about the important parts. 

I started at a new practice today and for the first time in months felt like I was finally getting ahead with my work and developing my clinical skills. It was lovely there, the kind of place I’d only aspire to work in when I qualify. Everyone there was lovely in a can’t do enough to help you kind of way I just kinda fit right in. I even get an hours lunch break and seeing I only live a few minutes drive up the road I went home to see my mum. She’s quite ill so I like to pop in as and when I can to spend time with her. Unfortunately she was stressed out and I felt like I walked into a group of mobbing baboons :/ she text me back to say sorry after I left so it was fine after then.

Finished work and managed to scrape £30 together to buy petrol and stock up the freezer with veggie food. I plan on being vegan in the new year but I think I will fail miserably because Mayonnaise! as Ollie would say ^^

Finally I came in and started clearing my room out. I’ve not long lost my flat and fiance which sucks because I now live in a shoe box room and have to navigate through a jungle of boxes filled with my life. It’s taken hours and if anything I’ve made more of a mess than anything, I can never seem to bring myself to throw anything out! I think I’ll just loft it for now. 

After that I had a cup of tea and chat with my mum. I’m so fiercely independant and can’t stand living back at home but it’s also comforting in a childhood reminiscent kind of way. Since then I’ve sent some emails, logged some work and started writing my online diary! I’m sure no one will ever read it but its more for me than anyone else. 

oh and one last note: Never regret the things that made you smile :)